I had to put my Beagle down in2011, I still cry. I also had a Shepherd mix that I had to give away a month later. Also was separated from my husbandof 12 yrs. We lost our home because he was ill. In 1 yr. I lost everything that I loved. I know how you feel. Brody the Lil Beagle got a hold of a Tiger salamander they can put down a horse, they secrete a poisonous mucus from the tail area. He tried to stick around but after 3 weeks I was carrying him outside to potty. The Shepherd Boo grieved for her little brother. I had to move to a hot climate Boo couldn’t tolerate. Its been a tough 3 yrs I had a painting done of them it helps.